Forgotten

"Sitting in this old chair,
Just makes me sleep for a moment,
Pass the time only for ending the day,
Which gives a lot of pains to be thought.

I know that i am just alone now,
No one can care myself like yesterday anymore,
How i wonder i never be seen in this world anymore,
'Cause i am too shy to express what i am sad for.

A star from the midnight sky just stays above,
Looking myself crying for uncertain wishes,
Trying to make myself smile,
Still so hard to believe it can.

And the night already comes,
A silent wind blows my hair smoothly,
Trying to pacify myself not to be sad anymore,
But it's too late to realize anymore.

Maybe i am so easy to be forgotten,
Maybe and i know it can be possible anytime,
Just a question that i can keep it myself,
'Am i being forgotten now? '

How cruel this world leaves me like this,
Never become one of them anymore,
And i become estranged in front of people's eyes,
Can't foresee what i had already planned anymore.
About walking together with you one day and in the one place."

My mind is being broken down mentally and my body is breaking down physically. No sleep, no food and the constant sadness that comes over me everyday… this is what I live with on a daily basis, that constant fear and feeling of being alone, forgotten and unloved.

In the words of Three Doors Down “im trying to be somebody, im not trying to be somebody else. This is mine im livin.” Nobody understands what I go through mentally every single day, a constant state of depression that is caused by the environment that I live in but cant get away from, the constant feeling like no one could give a shit about me.

Everyone that I thought was close to me up and left and I am left alone just sitting here with these thoughts running through my head and piercing my heart like a tiny dagger.